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ive tried to type how i feel many times no. i can't. it's not understandable. just,

-sigh-

Some things to ask yourself...

1. Why do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are getting weak?


2. Why do banks charge a fee on insufficient funds when they know there is not enough?


3. Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet?


4. Why doesn't glue stick to the bottle?


5. Why do they use sterilized needles for death by lethal injection?


6. Why doesn't Tarzan have a beard?


7. Why does Superman stop bullets with his chest, but ducks when you throw a revolver at him?


8. Why do Kamikaze pilots wear helmets?


9. Whose idea was it to put an "S" in the word "lisp"?


10. If people evolved from apes, why are there still apes?


11. Why is it that no matter what color bubble bath you use the bubbles are always white?


12. Is there ever a day that mattresses are not on sale?


13. Why do people constantly return to the refrigerator with hopes that something new to eat will have materialized?


14. Why do people keep running over a string a dozen times with their vacuum cleaner, then reach down, pick it up, examine it, then put it down to give the vacuum one more chance?


15. Why is it that no plastic bag will open from the end you first try?


16. How do those dead bugs get into those enclosed light fixtures?


17. Why is it that whenever you attempt to catch something that's falling off the table you always manage to knock something else over?


18. In winter why do we try to keep the house as warm as it was in summer when we complained about the heat?


19. How come you never hear father-in-law jokes?


20. If at first you don't succeed, shouldn't you try doing it like your wife told you to do it?


21. And obviously if at first you don't succeed, then don't take up sky diving!


22. The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four persons is suffering from some sort of mental illness. Think of your three best friends, if they're okay, then it's you.

=)

I move in three days. I'm sooo excited. It's going to be a lot of fun, I'm going into college like what I like to think as a more mature and wiser guy than I was when I left high school? Idk I learned a lot this summer about life and attitude and what's important...how there're many imperfections in everyone and the first step into fixing them is recognizing them in yourself, set aside the shame and the pride...

i'm growing, but finally i'm learning, through God. open up and you're led the right way. this summer God and a few close friends really made me feel refreshed.

on another note, i write about my excitement because we ordered a laptop today. i'm most excited, it'll last me throug the years and be my companion.

and also, my first order off of ebay...a card guard chip poker item thing, for good luck, hasn't come in and i paid for it a week ago. over a week ago. grr.

"AOL is kicking off a new internet documentary entitled Project Freshman and you have been selected by LSU to apply as the star of the show!You have been selected by LSU to apply for this exciting experience because we think you are an excellent student who would do a great job of documenting the LSU freshman experience."

That's how it all started. No big deal right? I know the message wasn't geared specifically for me or anything, but I checked it out anyway- summer had been slow and I had the time. So I filled it out, and it had about 20 questoins or so. Pretty lengthy but entertaining because it really got me excited for college.

Anyway, that was done and over and I went on with my life, but then I got a call the next day on my cell phone. It was Darren Eichorn. He worked for AOL and said he reviewed my application and AOL was really interested in going further with me and considering me for their show or whatever. So I get excited and what not and we talk for a while and he tells me why they're interested, and wants me to take the next step and send in a video.

"Below are some hints to making your video submission. Overall, we want you to speak on some of the stronger points of yourapplication.Remember to connect everything to going to college. Be specific. Tell us
your point of view and why on subjects. Give examples. Show us visually whenever possible. Support your statements with friends, family or members of your community. We are looking for specific story elements that we can look forward to in the semester."

That was a looong email on what to do with the video and all, but that was the opening paragraph. Pavan and I shot a video all day...on the canoe at sundown, playing bball, in the car, in the mall, at the poker table. I accidently recorded over a graduation tape =\ Shhh don't tell brother or parents. Anyway I did that with the attitude that i BETTER get it, because that was important! I felt really bad about that.

"Congratulations! You are finalist for Project: Freshman. This means that out of several hundred applications and videos received to date you are among 20 candidates being considered. We are moving forward because we are very interested in you so if you have any problems please feel free to call me or email me and I will help you out."

This email was sent to me after Darren called and said AOL was even more interested or whatever and wanted me to officially say on the phone I'm willing to do this, agree to the terms, etc. I did, and was very excited. Even turned in the discolure forms. -sigh- He told me my pay, a $100 a week and a new digital video camera. Sounded real good!

Anyway so we had emails and quite a few phone calls with Darren, it was a great experience. At the end of it all, with Darren giving me the heads up and filling me in a week ago on the phone, it was reiterated in this final email.

"Dear Sanjay,

I just want you to know that you are our 7th Man. AOL liked you so much that
they tried to find extra money to include you in the series. That said,
you're our #1 alternate. If anyone drops out, you're in.

We really appreciate you hanging in there and you're interest! We all think
you're exceptional.

Chris Sloan
EP, Project Freshman"

And obviously after something like that you have little "what ifs" and such. And I do have one myself, I didn't include one topic they may have foudn interesting or been looking for about college, and that was how it was predominantly conservative and idk blah blah. Oh well, all things happen for a reason. And, I told myself a while back I would have been happy either way. Because it would have taken time and all, and I woulda been out there or what not. ALSO, one reason I feel I may have not been picked is because he called while I was in New York, and asked "Hey Sanjay we were calling to see your availabiliity for us coming down and shooting you leaving your home and moving in and all. Are you freee from August 8 to August 11th?" AND I HAD TO TELL HIM NO! Because that was the week of BIOS boot camp. I'm afraid when he ahd 10 people or whatever, a quick way to pop some out would be check availability. Because from the 12th I had to move in on the 18th and that's like a tight squeeze. Idk, again. No dwelling over whats what. But it was an interesting experience, and I'm appreciate it even got that far.

Yeah so today marks a really really sad day for me. I mean I knew it was coming for the last few months, but the reality didn't sink in until today. I was supposed to be insured for one more month...we'd find it somwhere, I was told...just bc the one we have wont insure me anymore. Well, it was too expensive everywhere, and my dad put an ad in the paper to sell the one tangible gift I adored appreciated and care for more than anything else.

The first accident in December was a hit and run. Someone was in my lane around a curve on Highland, and to avoid them we went off the road. Simple? Not when you run into a bricked electrical box.

Costs were high so any more accidents within the next two years and they wouldn't insure me anymore. That's fine, I learned to drive responsibly and not neglect the road or driving even once, bc i realized whats on the line every time.

I'm driving down the interstate one day and I need to switch lanes. The lane next to me is completely clear, so I start switching. Three fourths there, a Ford who probably looked like effin 10 seconds before is about to merge RIGHT into me. So I hold the horn loudly, and stall my merge for 2 seconds so he could see I'm already there. He moved back, and things were fine.

What's NOT fine is the girl behind me who's going at least 90 mph down the lane i was in, and doesnt even wait for me to complete switching lanes. She's in such a hurry she's ready to pass me up, and the second I had to stall so the truck would see I'm merging, she had to swerve to the left to avoid rear ending me. Loses control of her car cuz of her excessie speed, and partially hits the wall. for the future,

1) slow the fuck down
2) wait for the person to finish swtiching lanes before u go ahead and pass them up

because of you i cannot drive for 3 years and lost my car. because of your negligence.

but honestly, if you learned from the incident like i learned from my first, i dont hold any hard feelings or any grudge against you at allll. im glad u were able to understand the potential for losing everythign with negligence to the road, like I did in my first time, and hopefully itd prevent anything that might have come in the future. its a blessing to learn a lesson without getting hurt.

but if you didnt learn anything and're still running around like that? argh.

at first i just somewhat wept at the fact that im losing my most prized, valued, and cared for materialistic possession. I was sad about the fact I won't drive for the prime years of my younger ages.

but it didn't take me long to realize i was being extreeeemely selfish. who am i to cry about losing a car when SO many people dont even have the opportunity to ever drive one, and some proudly earn theirs at a later age. forget losing a car, many people lose things much greater. i feel horrible for feeling bad or sad about losing just a car. i honestly feel selfishly horrible. i'm sorry, i am. God bless,

a very fortunate individual.

Yayy so I got a new phone today. I was updating my journal i think two years ago when I got my other one. This one's real cool, its the motorolla v551? my brother and i got a family plan for this coming year, we share 1000 minutes and its free mobile to mobile so if ur cingular tell me so i can talk to u and love the fact that im not wasting minutes.

there's a picture, just like I added last time.

so yeah like most of my days, they're boring, and litle things like this make me happy and make my day. i haven't worked out in 4 days and thats bad because i was on a roll. the heat is just a killer, and weekends i work wayyy too much. i need to get back on track.

i watched hitch today with some friends from work. it was really really funny and i enjoyed it. ive developed a grown liking and respect for will smith, and am agreeing with the fact that he looks like robert horry.

no, pronounced "orry"

It's really late and I'm really tired and pretty goofy. Oh, neither of my phones are working until my stupid new phone works because supposedly something that happens 4 times a year happened to me and the network backed up our request. bummer.

i wore a shirt by itself today. that was a first, because i ususally wear undershirts. for all of you who missed it, im sorry.

lol wow im really goofy. i will update at a later time. ooo im working on a video project tomorrow that i must get done, and if things work out ill provide details later.

goodnight.

1. I can't reach my license unless you hold my beer. (OK in Texas)
2. Sorry, Officer, I didn't realize my radar detector wasn't plugged in.
3.Aren't you the guy from the Village People?
4. Hey, you must've been doin' about 125 mph to keep up with me. Good job!
5. Are You Andy or Barney?
6. I thought you had to be in relatively good physical condition to be a police officer.
7. You're not gonna check the trunk, are you?
8. I pay your salary!
9. Gee, Office r! That's terrific. The last officer only gave me a warning, too!
10. Do you know why you pulled me over? Okay, just so one of us does.
11. I was trying to keep up with traffic. Yes, I know there are no other cars around.. That's how far ahead of me they are.
12. When the Officer says "Gee .Your eyes look red, have you been drinking?" You probably shouldn't respond with,"Gee Officer your eyes look glazed, have you been eating doughnuts?"

The last set of cousins left today! It was sad to see them go, but somewhat of a relef too. I don't get to see my cousins very often, but when they're in town my life's like on pause. No phone calls, no seeing friends, just paused and hanging out with my cousins.

We played tons of games like Mafia (idk if you've played it but we're pros), Sherades (spelling?), Pictionary, Psychiatrist. It's great because like my cousins are 30, 24, 20, 18, 16, 13 and 12, and though like the upper half of us grow up in between the times we see each other we still play games and pull all nighters like we're little kids. We know nothing else. We do have conversations to get to know each other however, but those are private.

I beat my uncles in poker which was exciting. A few of them play regularly but it came down to me and one of my best friends, he was the guest at the table, and he won after catching 3 rivers. I won 10 bucks.

OTHER than that, my grad party went well...saw my Indian community or whatever and family and stuff. I love my cousins man they're awesome. They're all unique in their own ways and sweet and we just get along well. Holler at family love. I'll elaborate some time soon!

Sanjizzle.

CHILDREN ON MARRIAGE & DATING

(1) You got to find somebody who likes the same stuff. Like, if you like sports, she should like it that you like sports, and she should keep the chips and dip coming.
-- Alan, age 10

(2) No person really decides before they grow up who they're going to marry. God decides it all way before, and you get to find out later who you're stuck with.
-- Kirsten, age 10


WHAT IS THE RIGHT AGE TO GET MARRIED?

(1) Twenty-three is the best age because you know the person FOREVER by then.
-- Camille, age 10

(2) No age is good to get married at. You got to be a fool to get married.
-- Freddie, age 6 (very wise for his age)

HOW CAN A STRANGER TELL IF TWO PEOPLE ARE MARRIED?

(1) You might have to guess, based on whether they seem to be yelling at the same kids.
-- Derrick, age 8

WHAT DO YOU THINK YOUR MOM AND DAD HAVE IN COMMON?

(1) Both don't want any more kids.
-- Lori, age 8

WHAT DO MOST PEOPLE DO ON A DATE?

(1) Dates are for having fun, and people should use them to get to know each other. Even boys have something to say if you listen long enough.
-- Lynnette, age 8 (isn't she a treasure)

(2) On the first date, they just tell each other lies and that
usually gets them interested enough to go for a second date.
-- Martin, age 10

WHAT WOULD YOU DO ON A FIRST DATE THAT WAS TURNING SOUR?

(1) I'd run home and play dead. The next day I would call all the newspapers and make sure they wrote about me in all the dead columns.
-- Craig, age 9

WHEN IS IT OKAY TO KISS SOMEONE?

(1) When they're rich.
-- Pam, age 7

(2) The law says you have to be eighteen, so I wouldn't want to mess with that.
-- Curt, age 7

(3) The rule goes like this: If you kiss someone, then you should marry them and have kids with them. It's the right thing to do.
-- Howard, age 8

IS IT BETTER TO BE SINGLE OR MARRIED?

(1) I don't know which is better, but I'll tell you one thing. I'm never going to have sex with my wife. I don't want to be all grossed out.
-- Theodore, age 8

(2) It's better for girls to be single but not for boys. Boys need someone to clean up after them.
-- Anita, age 9 (bless you child)

HOW WOULD THE WORLD BE DIFFERENT IF PEOPLE DIDN'T GET MARRIED?

(1) There sure would be a lot of kids to explain, wouldn't there?
-- Kelvin, age 8

And the #1 Favorite is........

HOW WOULD YOU MAKE A MARRIAGE WORK?

(1) Tell your wife that she looks pretty, even if she looks like a truck.
-- Ricky, age 10

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Managers

A team of Managers was given an assignment to measure the height of a
flagpole. So the Managers go out to the flagpole with ladders and tape.

They're falling off the ladders, dropping the tape measures - the whole
thing is just a mess.

An Engineer comes along and sees what they're trying to do, walks over,
pulls the flagpole out of the ground, lays it flat, measures it from
end to end, gives the measurement to one of the managers and walks away.


After the Engineer has gone, one manager turns to another and laughs.

"Isn't that just like an engineer? We're looking for height and he gives
the length!"

Moral:

No matter what good you do, Managers can always find fault in you

You guys, CINDERELLA MAN IS THE BEST MOVIE EVERRRRRRR. Like seriously, I never use that phrase without sincerity. I absolutely loved it. Like it held ALL your emotions...from excitement to grief to ur adreneline. It really like makes u appreciate stuff u have and like teaches u the true meaning of things in life and stuff. I'm trying to sound as guyish as i can with using the term "stuff" so i seem like i really dont care but--

anyway yeah, so go check that out. call me if you're going ill go again =) I start at Express tomorrow! It's my orientation, I'm going to be there from 9 am to 1 pm and then 1 to 5 at american eagle. YEP, I ended up doing both, just talked to the managers. Hopefully the time conflict won't be too bad.

Also, I'm trying to get a new screen name and email addy and all. Write down your suggestions? Winner gets a cookie. Here's what i'm brainstorming with-

- the color blue
- the combination of "blue" and "boy"
- my nickname sanju
- numbers can be 10 or 87 or 05 (played out tho)

hmmmm!